dusty stray

Estranged

Dusty Stray- "Estranged"

Track Listing:

  1. You Couldn’t Wait To See Me Cry
  2. Through The Atmosphere
  3. Houses
  4. Things Will Look Different
  5. I Can Still Pretend You’re Here Tonight
  6. Down
  7. Gorey Story
  8. Little Lude
  9. All My Wrongs
  10. After The Play
  11. Old And Gray
  12. Window
  13. Happy End
  14. Hey, That’s No Way To Say Goodbye

Lyrics

"You Couldn’t Wait To See Me Cry"

In the beginning, there was no end
Then you hurt me again and again
You told the world what I did
You got our best friends on your side
You couldn’t wait to see me
You couldn’t wait to see me cry

You started stepping out, you stepped up your game
You went through changes, I stayed the same
A new vocabulary to lure extraordinary guys
You couldn’t wait to see me
You couldn’t wait to see me cry

You couldn’t wait to see me
You couldn’t wait to see me cry

"Through The Atmosphere"

I don’t know even know if this is clear
I don’t know if you can really hear
It’s so weird talking to you
Through the atmosphere

I saw an elm with a little red sign
Just a first name and then a lifetime
Church bells chimed, the procession
Walked out of line

You would’ve really liked the low country
You are never too far from the sea
You will be here in spirit
Eternally
Eternally

"Houses"

I didn’t want you to stay
I didn’t want you to go away
What were we supposed to do
I wasn’t me and then you weren’t you

All of the houses in a pretty little row
In one of those houses we had a home
All of the stains have been covered
All of the locks have been changed
Broken windows boarded up and
We’ve become estranged

I would look you in the eye
I’d say “I love you” but I would lie
I always knew you could tell
You always knew me far too well

All of the houses in a pretty little row
In one of those houses we had a home
All of the stains have been covered
All of the locks have been changed
Broken windows boarded up and
We’ve become estranged

I didn’t want you to stay
I didn’t want you to go away

"Things Will Look Different"

It’s way past the last call
There’s no one left at all
Just you and me here once again
And I’m about to talk about
The way I feel for you
But you won’t let me begin

You touch your finger to my lips
You say you won’t hear about it
“Just put your coat on – it’s been a long, long night
It’s all right – things will look different in the morning”

You guide me through the doorway
As we leave the bar
And you put your hand in mine
You take my keys away from me
As we get in my car
And I take it as a sign

Under the blankets I try again
You say you won’t hear about it
“Just turn the light out – it’s been a long, long night
It’s all right – things will look different in the morning”

And in the morning
And in the morning
And in the morning you were gone
You were gone

"I Can Still Pretend You’re Here Tonight"

So many things that have never been done
So many songs that have never been sung
I think of all the pain you went through
I think you knew all the time that I knew
You were only to be here a short time
I can still pretend you’re here tonight

You once said that we just weren’t meant to be
At least not so romantically
You gave me plenty of inspiration
Through love lots of damage is done
What was unsaid tears shed to try and make it right
I can still pretend you’re here tonight

I hope in some sort of heavenly place
You are surrounded by love, light and grace
I hear your voice now so weak yet so clear
It’s almost as if you were really here
And I know you hated to have to say goodbye
I can still pretend you’re here tonight

"Down"

It’s such a short life and then you die
So why not give it one more try
Struggling and suffering all the while
With you I’d do it with a smile

We were down but down together
Now we’re so lonely
Won’t you please come back down with me

It’s such a short life and then you die
So why not give it one more try

"Gorey Story"

Old two-story sea captain’s home on Cape Cod
A dark Victorian monstrosity
Edward Gorey lived alone with an odd
Assortment of furry curiosities

He had a bushy beard
And he was pretty weird
He wrote story
After story
Beautiful and disturbing
For children
But not really
Death and murder
Seem so silly

He made drawings only with pen and ink
A distinct unsettling style
Fur coats, cats, bats, insects and worms
And urns, wallpaper and tile

He had a bushy beard
And he was pretty weird
He wrote story
After story
Beautiful and disturbing
For children
But not really
Death and murder
Seem so silly

"All My Wrongs"

There was something arising inside me
New life had grown from the dead
A guardian angel to guide me
Or maybe a devil instead

I found you down by the ocean
I said I had something to say
I was overcome with emotion
I couldn’t let you get away

I guess I held you a little too tightly
I guess I held you a little too long
I didn’t notice that you were not fighting
I didn’t know that I could be so strong

I’ve been righting all my wrongs
Now it’s you I’m living for
So come back where you belong
I won’t hurt you anymore

"After The Play"

I saw you at intermission
All alone there with your champagne
You looked nice and quite exotic
Our eyes met and then looked away

On the backside of your program
You wrote “Let’s meet after the play”
Though I didn’t even know you
I wrote back with a simple “ok”

I didn’t see it coming
I just wanted some fun
I thought, “What am I doing?”
I thought, “What have I done?”

Lights went up, the play was over
You stayed seated wiping your face
It was covered with mascara
Through your sobbing I heard you say

“I didn’t see it coming
I just wanted some fun
I thought, ‘What am I doing?’
I thought, ‘What have I done?’”

"Old And Gray"

I heard you’re searching but never have found
That someone who would lift you off the ground
Now you’re old and gray
Old and gray

I’ve been through so many it’s not funny
I cannot love them or they can’t love me
Now I’m old and gray
Old and gray

I’m still waiting for you
I’m still waiting for you

"Window"

Shivering alone in my bedroom
Wondering if this might be my tomb
Burying my head in my pillow
Reaper rapping at my window
Oh no, I am not ready to die
I mean I’m only a child
Why don’t you pick on someone your own size

I hear dishes in the kitchen
Somebody yells “Mary Hartman”
I can’t close my eyes more tightly
I’m terrified that this might be
Maybe this might be my time to die
I won’t get to say goodbye
My mother and father will cry

"Happy End"

We had something that shouldn’t have been
We could never have a happy end
You brought me down
You knocked me out
But now I’m comin’ around
I’m comin’ around

I got used to the darkness somehow
Light comes more easily to me now
You brought me down
You knocked me out
But now I’m comin’ around
I’m comin’ around

We had something that shouldn’t have been
We could never have a happy end

"Hey, That’s No Way To Say Goodbye"
(words and music by Leonard Cohen)

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm
Your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm
Yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new
In city and in forest, they smiled like me and you
But now it’s come to distances and both of us must try

Your eyes are soft with sorrow
Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye

I’m not looking for another as I wander in my time
Walk me to the corner, our steps will always rhyme
You know my love goes with you as your love stays with me
It’s just the way it changes like the shoreline and the sea
But let’s not talk of love or chains and things we can’t untie

Your eyes are soft with sorrow
Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm
Your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm
Yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new
In city and in forest they smiled like me and you
But let’s not talk of love or chains and things we can’t untie

Your eyes are soft with sorrow
Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye