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Pop Guilt

Screamfeeder Album Artwork
  1. Half Lies
  2. All Over It Again
  3. Got a Feeling
  4. Going to California
  5. Shelter
  6. Falling
  7. Alone in a Crowd
  8. Making it Up
  9. Sonic Souvenirs
  10. Karen Trust Me
  11. Not Afraid
  12. I Might Have Some Regrets
  13. Sciatic Heart

Lyrics

HALF LIES

Up on the roof
Back in the dunes
You caught me in the half light
Behind the door
Back in my room
Decisions took me all night
It involved a lot of guessing
And things I just made up
Hoping you’d believe them
Before they come unstuck
Only half lies
They’re only half lies
Go tell your mum
you’ll take the track
back home after sunset
We’re in your car
Crammed in the back
We saw the moon come up
Your hair was in your face
It covered up your eyes
It couldn’t hide your lying
But I was still buying
Your half lies
The words you whisper
And what they spell
Say less than the unspoken ones
When you tell me half lies
I’ll take double
Of what you’re selling
We’re late, in trouble
It’s time for telling

GOT A FEELING

Don’t wanna hear a sound
But if I hear a sound again
I wanna hear like only you could hear it
Don’t wanna touch the noise
But if I touch the noise again
It’s gotta feel like only you could feel it
I can’t taste the morning
I can’t feel the force
I got left home alone
And I drifted off course
I wanna burn my fingers
I wanna feel the flame
In my nerves let it linger
In my bloodstream and my brain
Got a feeling only you can feel it
Got a feeling only you
Got a feeling only you can feel it
Don’t wanna see the light
Just wanna know what light feels like
Through your eyelids
In the morning bright
Don’t wanna see the sun
Don’t even want it on my skin
Kinda feel like only you can
Let the sunlight in
I wanna cut the fences
I wanna cross the wires
Got left with my senses
And a new pair of pliers
I wanna stop the signals
Before they form
I wanna feel the pressure drop
I wanna smell the storm
I kinda feel like I’m spinning round
I kinda feel like I’m spinning round
But I’m not spinning round

ALL OVER IT AGAIN
You fall behind, I didn’t know
In a different mind, just goes to show
I couldn’t follow, got left behind
So hard to swallow or to define
I toed the line, you wouldn’t know
It was all a lie, just didn’t show
You were trying, wouldn’t let it go
Push against me when I go too slow
And it’s over, all over it again
Going over everything again
When it’s over we’ll go over it again
Going over everything again
We decide to go over it again
We forget to get over it again
We forget to go over it again
We forget to go over it again

GOING TO CALIFORNIA

Don’t bother standing up
Not gonna carry you
Going to California
Can’t afford to marry you baby

SHELTER

I know what I know
What do you want?
I know what side I’m on
I know what I want
What do you know?
Do you know what side you’re on?
Do we need to ask her
Is she safe with the lover?
Is there a monster?
Is this Helter Skelter?
Get it right now, get it right now
Pull it right over and get it right over
And get it right now
Will he neglect her?
Teach him to protect her
Cause she needs a shelter,
Not helter skelter
And what of the mother?
She needs a shelter
Not helter skelter

FALLING

I said I’m gonna kill you
I thought about it a lot
I know I’m gonna have to
I know I’m gonna have to
After all the rules are twisted
I’m out from under glass
I feel myself falling
I can feel myself falling
I’m pressed up to the mouthpiece
My lips and neck are wet
From a second hand expression
From a second hand expression
Of something once remembered
Of everything you’ve said
and what it might have meant now
and what it might have meant
I can feel the lava rising
and how it should have felt
But nothing will replace it
Nothing will replace it
And you’re gonna stop running
This place that you’re holding
Oh maybe there’s no one
O baby there’s no one there
I thought I might have felt you
But I was just pretending
Go now, it’s a long way home
I don’t want to walk the long way
After all the doors are opened
I’m out from under glass
I feel myself falling
I can feel myself falling

ALONE IN A CROWD
You surround yourself with people
And I know everyone
We’re alone in a crowd
And you know everyone
I know everyone has secrets
But I won’t ever tell
That I’m alone in a crowd
And you know everyone
I don’t care what people are thinking
And I won’t ever say
You’re alone in a crowd
No one’s business anyway
We surround ourselves with secrets
And I told every one
And you won’t ever tell
‘Cause we know everyone
I don’t care what people are saying
And I won’t ever tell
That I’m alone in a crowd
And you know everyone

MAKING IT UP

I thought that you’d stopped trying
It’s like you don’t know
what the point is any more
It seems you stopped your crying
Is it cos you just don’t feel
That much any more?
I couldn’t tell if quietness
Meant you didn’t care
I kinda thought that stoicism
Was you just feeling scared
But I’ve been making it up so long
Making it up so long
I’ve been making it up so long
That it’s kinda come true
I wanted to impress you
But I could feel you getting
harder to impress
How could I have guessed you
Might be feeling shy
Or ashamed of yourself unless
You thought that you had let me down
And I had pulled away
Or had we fallen out of step
Ran out of things to say
I couldn’t tell if quietness
Meant you were getting bored
I kinda thought that cynicism
Would stop you feeling sore

SONIC SOUVENIRS

You got me jumping out of my skin
I’m rattling round like a skeleton
Setting me off like a rocket
It’s been so long
I’ve nearly forgotten what it’s like
You couldn’t have seen me coming
Through the forest and the trees
The blossoms and the leaves
You’re exactly what I need
They think that magic could be something
If the scientists just believed
And I got lots of funny new ideas
And I’ve got lots of sonic souvenirs
And I’m going away for a long long time
I see you coming but I don’t mind
I won’t be around for very long
I see you coming but I’ll be gone I’ll be gone
Like a senator in waiting
Always a bridesmaid
Haters gonna be hating
Destroying the stories they’ve been fabricating,
They’ll be gone they’ll be gone.
And I’ve got lots of funny new ideas
And I’ve got lots of sonic souvenirs
And I’m going away for a long long time
I see you coming, but I don’t mind
And I won’t be around for very long
I see you coming but I’ll be gone
And I don’t believe it anymore
I see you coming but I’ll be gone
I see you coming but I’ll be gone

KAREN TRUST ME

I skipped a beating down on the floor
Still ended up feeling kinda sore
My heart was beating two to four
I stitched my mouth up to be sure

I met the current, I felt the flow
Come let it take me where it would go
This dump is fairly kicking
Come watch me playing dead
Can’t spell my name but I’ve got soul feeling

Down past the bike track I’ll play my part
Got a propane brain and a sciatic heart
Karen trust me, I’ll play my part
Got a propane brain and a sciatic heart

Got an hour of sunlight with my name on it
If it’d be fun I might take the blame for it

My heart was beating two to four
I couldn’t say much with a broken jaw

Down past the bike track I’ll play my part
Got a propane brain and a sciatic heart
Karen trust me, I’ll play my part
Got a propane brain and a sciatic heart

NOT AFRAID

I wanna taste the dirt on my fingers
Wanna wake with my hair in the sand
I’m not afraid of dreams I’ve been having that I don’t understand
Overcome by the volume of history
Outdone by the weight of the world
Pushing down distorting my vision
Crushing my skull
Wanna squint into the sunlight
Lay me down neath the powerlines
Been so long since I felt electricity
Sing in my mind
There’s a dark horizon
I already knew
When I closed my eyes I had
A lot of forgetting to do
I wanna stop the movie from ending
I like the scene with your hair in the dirt
Been so long since I started pretending
This ain’t gonna hurt
I wanna float away from the capsule
Wanna feel the temperature drop
Not afraid of being abandoned
Or getting forgot
On a dark horizon
Where I already knew
If I closed my eyes there was
So much forgetting to do
There are empty spaces
I’ve already begun removing traces
Of all the forgetting I’ve done
At the dark horizon
I already knew
If I closed my eyes I had
So much forgetting to do

REGRETS

I might have some regrets
But I don’t let them kill me
Things I’d like to forget
Or try to change
Sometimes I get over
Your blaming of the past
It’s gonna get you nowhere, nowhere fast
I might have some regrets
But the decade wasn’t wasted
A letter to my family
A letter to my friends
Might explain away the strangeness
Don’t say you couldn’t tell
I don’t handle changes, changes well
You wanna get forgiven
You wanna let it go
You find you’re living in a shadow
Make better friends with
Who you became
It always ends with
Someone trying to pass the blame
Mistakes I should have learned from
Trying to avoid them
The second time around
To say that I was wasted
Or I was trying to waste your time
I was only wasting wasting mine

SCIATIC HEART

Oh oh oh I’m so high
Oh oh oh I’m so low
I explode like a volcano
Oh my heart’s a pathogen
Burning blood and oxygen
Try to leach it out and then
Oh oh start it all again
It’s my sciatic heart
It’s my medicated part
It’s the end before the start
It’s a permanent malaise
A continuing distaste
My emotions are displaced
My thoughts acting out in haste
Oh oh oh clench my jaw
Leaves me trembling and sore
I am crawling back for more
I’m collapsed here on the floor
It’s my sciatic heart
It’s my medicated part
It’s the end before the start